;This gorgeous girl whom I had a secret crush on is having a liaison with a lousy lout. He is really nothing more than a clod but he played her to his strengths; he had a lyrical, mellifluous voice and lobbied her with a litany of points why she had to fornicate with him, and there he got it. I think it is a larceny for this man to have such an elevated company. I feel really discomfitted, dejected, despondent and disgruntled to see this girl lavishing and squandering her looks and the boor savoring her flesh. Does that mean I too have a chance? I blame my laxity for not having given a shot at her myself

Or, am I paying for my past karma? I do not deny that I had a promiscus lifestyle, but is it such a sin for a laymen to have licentious chracter? We are not required to practice celibacy or abstrain from carnal knowledge.
I am loath to see myself succumb to libido, even to the extremity of becoming livid, but life would be simply be listless without it.
I just lament this hardship I have been cursed to face.

What can I do to get myself out of this agony?